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MOVE ON Tay ... Move on...

2012
New Year = New Start
What better time for a New Beginning?

VIa

It's not easy, but I hope it's worth it.

3 is a magic number. Blind Melon sings a song by that name. In it, he sings a line that says:
"A man and a woman has a little baby. There were three in the family"

I miss it. I miss waking up and feeling ok. I don't miss him, but I so badly I miss having a family. I miss being able to see my daughter everyday, and being able to tuck her in at night, everynight. I miss her and all her favorite toys and her books. I miss being whole, all of us together. Having someone to come home too, i miss having a home. Skye's own cute room, my home I made whole and filled with memories. Memories of Skye's Childhood, all ripped apart suddenly and leaving this gaping wound right in my heart. I miss the normal but so often taken for granted number 3. 3 in a family. Us. I miss the little things.

I used to ease the pain, and ease the feelings that hurt so bad. Now that i'm clean, all those feelings hidden and pushed inside so, so deep inside are surfacing, all those feelings that were never fully felt are raw and sharp and it's more painful than i had ever thought it would be. They had to come out sometime. Gotta bite my lip and take it. How else will I ever get past it? It feels better than before. At least I feel something. Before I felt nothing.

I am a mess.
I want to get past this.
I want to get over this.
no...
I will get past this.
I have to get over this.

via ................................................................

a little song of encouragement
for me:



FAsTeR

I can't talk to you.

you think I'm lost inside my mind.

you're like an old tatoo. and I know you'll fade in time.

I'm not the girl you think you know.

I'm not the girl you waited for I'm not the one for you

just one thing left to do...

Why don't you let me be ?

I'm a million miles away
why don't you set me free

you don't treat me like you say

I wont tuck you in one last time
i'm takin back what is mine
for me,
i belong to me

Now I'm goin faster
you're goin backwards
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone
i'm goin faster I know what I'm after
I shoulda been after it all along
i'm going faster
i'm going
FASTER

♥ lonely

"Is it a risk to love. But what if it doesn't work out?
Ah. but what if it does..."

LET FREEDOM RING

What being an American means to us:
Me- Being an American to me, means feeling safe
Matt- Freedom and Choice
Skye- Being super-duper, and fireworks (she said so herself)



Where liberty dwells, there is my country. ~Benjamin Franklin

May the sun in his course visit no land more free, more happy, more lovely, than this our own country! ~Daniel Webster

How often we fail to realize our good fortune in living in a country where happiness is more than a lack of tragedy. ~Paul Sweeney

And I'm proud to be an American,
where at least I know I'm free.
And I won't forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
~Lee Greenwood

From every mountain side
Let Freedom ring.
~Samuel F. Smith, "America"

Then join hand in hand, brave Americans all!
By uniting we stand, by dividing we fall.
~John Dickinson

HELP!

My blog doesn't have the picture upload anymore, what do I do?

Dreamy Chocolate Cake

blahh... i'm so sick of plain salad and plain chicken.

Day 7:
15 days to go!

I had a dream today that I was eating the most amazing looking chocolate cake I have ever seen. Chocolate syrup was dripping all over my fingers and I had the whole deliciousness to myself:) Hahaa.

This diet is KILLING me! I am dreaming about eating, I can never escape it!