Lately

I thought I'd give an update since I last posted.

Here's what's happened since my last post-

 

•Skye started kindergarten at Canyon Crest.

 

 

•My sister is a freak. She's all around amazing!

 

•Jordan broke his arm. Again...

 

 

 

•My dad is also a freak. Finally finished Wasatch 100. That was his biggest challenge and he crushed his goal. Way to go dad!

 

 

 

• I turned 25 and had an awesome surprise party up Provo Canyon!

 (Im having a little bit of a quarter-life crisis).

 

•I moved in with two new roommates. (Grandma and Grandpa) They are THE BEST!

 

• I got a new job working in the HR department at Vivint. It's the best place to work!

 

• Skye lost her first tooth.

 

• We went to Uncle Teds in Idaho for thanksgiving. .

 

Skye had a blast

• Made the cutest gingerbread house EVER!

 

• Vivint gives back. We did a sub-for-Santa the same day of the Newtown Massacre.

Very sad day... So awful.

 

• My cousin Cole was called to serve is Dallas, Texas.

Kim had not yet recovered from his absence....

 

 

• My brother Morgan found his other half. (Addison). She is one amazing girl!

 

 

• Skye was a present in her kindergarten Christmas Program

and it was the cutest thing I've ever seen.

 

 

 

• and last but not least, Jason proposed. T.Y is engaged! Finally!

 

 

And that's what I've been up to.

THE END.

When Life Gives You Lemons...

I was debating whether I should start a new blog or continue this one, after a hard long contemplation, I decided starting a new blog would be like cutting the most important part of a story, and keeping it unfinished.
This blog is my story. The only place where all my pieces have been untouched, and unedited. It's a little painful to look back, but so are the memories. So, I'll continue on with my 'TayandSkye' adventure, but expect some changes. I am a different person than I was then...
When life gives you lemons,

paint that sh#t gold!

single

le love

MOVE ON Tay ... Move on...

2012
New Year = New Start
What better time for a New Beginning?

VIa

It's not easy, but I hope it's worth it.

3 is a magic number. Blind Melon sings a song by that name. In it, he sings a line that says:
"A man and a woman has a little baby. There were three in the family"

I miss it. I miss waking up and feeling ok. I don't miss him, but I so badly I miss having a family. I miss being able to see my daughter everyday, and being able to tuck her in at night, everynight. I miss her and all her favorite toys and her books. I miss being whole, all of us together. Having someone to come home too, i miss having a home. Skye's own cute room, my home I made whole and filled with memories. Memories of Skye's Childhood, all ripped apart suddenly and leaving this gaping wound right in my heart. I miss the normal but so often taken for granted number 3. 3 in a family. Us. I miss the little things.

I used to ease the pain, and ease the feelings that hurt so bad. Now that i'm clean, all those feelings hidden and pushed inside so, so deep inside are surfacing, all those feelings that were never fully felt are raw and sharp and it's more painful than i had ever thought it would be. They had to come out sometime. Gotta bite my lip and take it. How else will I ever get past it? It feels better than before. At least I feel something. Before I felt nothing.

I am a mess.
I want to get past this.
I want to get over this.
no...
I will get past this.
I have to get over this.

via ................................................................

a little song of encouragement
for me:



FAsTeR

I can't talk to you.

you think I'm lost inside my mind.

you're like an old tatoo. and I know you'll fade in time.

I'm not the girl you think you know.

I'm not the girl you waited for I'm not the one for you

just one thing left to do...

Why don't you let me be ?

I'm a million miles away
why don't you set me free

you don't treat me like you say

I wont tuck you in one last time
i'm takin back what is mine
for me,
i belong to me

Now I'm goin faster
you're goin backwards
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone
i'm goin faster I know what I'm after
I shoulda been after it all along
i'm going faster
i'm going
FASTER

♥ lonely

"Is it a risk to love. But what if it doesn't work out?
Ah. but what if it does..."

LET FREEDOM RING

What being an American means to us:
Me- Being an American to me, means feeling safe
Matt- Freedom and Choice
Skye- Being super-duper, and fireworks (she said so herself)



Where liberty dwells, there is my country. ~Benjamin Franklin

May the sun in his course visit no land more free, more happy, more lovely, than this our own country! ~Daniel Webster

How often we fail to realize our good fortune in living in a country where happiness is more than a lack of tragedy. ~Paul Sweeney

And I'm proud to be an American,
where at least I know I'm free.
And I won't forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
~Lee Greenwood

From every mountain side
Let Freedom ring.
~Samuel F. Smith, "America"

Then join hand in hand, brave Americans all!
By uniting we stand, by dividing we fall.
~John Dickinson